You know, I haven't believed myself to be a Christian for a long time. But something has been ringing true in my mind these last few days. That of the Christian lesson that God never gives us more than we can handle.

Anyone who's been close to me knows what a complete shitstorm this past year has been for me. Husband's affair, my divorce, my parents situation and impending divorce, questions about who my father actually is, my health, single parenting, school, new memories of past...

Wow, I haven't posted in a while...again. Then again, I usually come to proazn.com to read other people's experience. I feel since I am younger, I can learn alot from the older more experienced members that have joined and been here for awhile.

But moving on, the summer has been fairing very nicely. I am still waiting for this job to come in. I'm actually going to head out and find another job that's hiring. I want to be on the safe side. Hopefully by the end of the fall semester...

Eh, this week has been fun.

I went to the national zoo, little to see, but with friends was great.

I went to Asahi yesterday with Sarah and Jenny. Korean/Japanese restaurant. Next time we're getting a sushi boat.

and now I am home from my orthodontist appointment.

So my niece and nephews' fish, Brock, died today. I was the lucky one to find it.

I check on the fish everyday, graze the bowl to get the fish to move to make sure it is alive. The fish likes to just hang out in one spot for a long time. It was fine this morning but later I saw it in between the fack shrubbery on its side. I tapped the bowl repeatedly but it didn't move. I whispered to my mom "I think its dead" and then called my sister. She first said "You called me at work for...

I hope this gets easier, today I was tested to what my limit probably is.

I was trying to figure out my toilet (first shitty situation, but whatever) I had the top off and I didn't realize my son could reach it. Well he knocked it over and it broke and he cut his finger. The cut was only about 1/4 long so I wasn't too worried at first.

I started to clean it up, but it just kept bleeding more and more, I was trying to restrain a frantic toddler, hold his hand still,...