well.. i am going to be mindful of the little one, but one thing i learned is to keep things as normal as possible.. so i am still planing out last minute things, small kinks and qwirks that have sprung up.

Actually setting up hair appointments today, but i have to get a hold of my flower lady and ask if the headpieces are going to be real or silk.. trying to get more "oranges" or peaches.. up against Navy, i think that would be so pretty for an august wedding.. but i have so many...

5yrs.. in, and i thought we were out of the arms that hold us.. poor little Ava may not have survived her life saving operation ( it just didn't work) i been at the doctors all day her renal U/S does not look good but her bloodwork come back fine, he sent us home for another 4wks but i am to watch her very closely now.

i am just now getting emotional, cause she is playing, running.. joking and being the little ham she is.. i wouldn't know what to do with out her..

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deleted that vent.. they dont need the satisfaction! i got other things to focus on.

for the past month they been building up! and finally hit me hard yesterday, nothing like waking up like you been hit my a mac-truck or ton of bricks!

I was invited out this afternoon to browse the local art museums, which i'm so glad i decided to suck up my stuffiness.. this was a great idea! then we spent the day at the public library getting to know my new friend and her kids ( she is president of the PTA) SO.. i know what i'm doing this coming fall.. how do i know, cause of she...

ehhh.. more doc trips! then a class tonight and i didnt finish the homework! i'm such a dork!..

will catch up when i can! (wave)


(edit) after the visit..

SO.. the news and time has come O needs a hearing aid!

more radom thought about the ped visit.

SINCE he know's the kids family and only me for the past 10yrs, him being able to see my side was surely a surprise.. i suppose he is more realistic with the disease...