i am proud of myself, and i will continue my journey.. the best part about this i did it alone.

i am living a beautiful life..THAT is what truely gives me joy.

so the past few nights i been trying to sleep.. only to wake up to what feels like.. "wind" passing over me, took me hours to fall back to sleep then scared that i fell asleep and didn't know it.. hard when your S/O is away. but i am occupied enough.. i think the strange phone calls, have my mind going..

also, i have had 2 dreams about hurricane's in the past month.. and it always involves chad, i suppose cause he's the weather man it bothers me..

the first dream i...

i been listening to the guy from the last lecture for the past few days, just searching.. finding words to relate to in my own life..

and he says something about.. if a person is not riding you or being harsh or hard on you anymore is because they have given up on you..AND thats when you have to worry about yourself, cause that person no longer cares for you.(basically YOU have to think what you did or did not do)

for me, giving up on people is really hard..and there...

some low blows in e-mails these past few days, have me really pissed off.

the channels are not working! and i'm prepared at all cost to do what it takes! SO BACK UP!

i miss reading this peom. i always liked it.

Poem lyrics of The Freedom Of The Moon by Robert Frost.

I've tried the new moon tilted in the air
Above a hazy tree-and-farmhouse cluster
As you might try a jewel in your hair.
I've tried it fine with little breadth of luster,
Alone, or in one ornament combining
With one first-water start almost shining.

I put it shining anywhere I please.
By walking slowly...