whats up with the bad news week?

just had my niece call me as i was responding to a post .. she is 9, and a couple years ago her father commited suicide, and she has been having a difficult time dealing with it, wanting to hurt herself, i think my little sister already had to commit her to a child's hospital dealing with things like this.. some where south, from where i am..

I had to shut off my random thought, and kick into adult auntie mode.. i never expected to be such an influence or impact on a little person's life like this except for my own children.

I think my sister had her call me, cause my kids seem to adjust well to thier own situation. my thoughts are.. kids are different and react to things all on thier own, what my kids deal with, its a miracle they aren't screwed up, but so high functioning they keep ME on track with goals!! ( now thats teamwork)

i didnt know what to do, i just asked her questions and gave her answers and told her, growing older is earned, and the older we get the easier the answers.

9 is just to young to understand, love is a magical thing between 2 people.. just cause you can't see them doesnt mean its not there..

The things i do for people.. the lives i save!! .. often i think i should be a saint! but.. then i think about my own heart in all this, GOD built me to survive.. and thats what i do.. i sacrafise myself to save another..

just hope, all that i do is not in vain.

i wish, i said the right things..