Since my boss is out today and it’s a slow day, I’ve got way too much time to think. Feeling angsty and unsure. So I made plans to meet up with Billy tonight. So far, we’ve only just been talking on the phone. Normally, I’m leery about meeting people online, but at the time, since he was busting my chops about it, I figured, why not. I mean…it’s not everyday that I can find someone I click with so well. We’ve actually talked about my fears and insecurities and why I was already burying the possibility...

The Road not Taken Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth; Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet...

actually had to leave again yesterday afternoon to take the trip up to the hospital cause the school called me.. usually i am OK till someone freaks out. Her kidney #'s went up a point, so i decided to keep her home today no school for her, so i can watch her myself her side did puff up, but not as bad as it was on sunday.

All i know is, if her kidney is going to crap out this might be the time..

other thoughts, things have not been easy, but i tell you what.. force...

not sure whats going on, but we just gotta keep her drained so i have to make her potty every hour or 2. will keep people posted got home yesterday.

i have alot to do today other then docs and hospitals i do have another life.

saturday i'm doing a food drive collection and i have boxes and poster to make.. and freeze my bunz.

i'm still sick as a dog, i guess its the flu.. but i don't have the time for a cold to keep me down.

I am alive.

and Thanksgiving break is right around the corner.