I can’t believe I was idiotic enough to tell Billy what Danny said about him. It had just so happened that I was online with both my younger brother and Danny, when Billy texted me. I playfully texted back to him the fact that I’ve been breaking the so-called ‘rules’ of dating and relationships and that my brother and ex disapprove of him. He asked me what I was talking about and I told him not to worry about it and that it doesn’t change anything between us or what I thought about him. The...

Heh…according to Danny, apparently, I’ve broken all the rules when it comes to dating/relationships (1 don't pay for the dates; 2 don't give gifts unless first given; 3 - must have good family relationships; 4 - must gain approval of at least 2 of my friends; 5 - minimum job requirement or potential; 6 - specified amount of time for flings. no longer, or something to that effect).

Sigh* He’s been reading my blogs and disapproves. I told Henry, and he said he didn’t say anything,...

Aaarrgghhhhh!!! I don’t know what I’m doing….not that that’s exactly news. Such a fool. My mind is playing tricks on me and I think I’m taking some of the things Billy says too seriously. One moment, my mind is mushy and thinking, maybe, just maybe, something is there and I’m all comfortable and kind of happy. The next, I’m already talking myself out of it, because there’s such an extreme difference in personality. I care and I want to be there if that’s what he really wants, but then I wonder...

So Friday came and went. James had asked me out later inthe day, and I know I could've picked up a random date or made other plans, but... I dunno. Guess I had my mind and heart set on seeing Billy. Bleah...foolish and cheesy as usual. Anyways, somehow Billy and I had gotten our wires crossed that night. I went to the gym instead because I didn't hear from him. When I got out around 6:30 PM, I saw he had texted me at 6:20 saying he just woke up. I texted back saying I just got out of the...

Since my boss is out today and it’s a slow day, I’ve got way too much time to think. Feeling angsty and unsure. So I made plans to meet up with Billy tonight. So far, we’ve only just been talking on the phone. Normally, I’m leery about meeting people online, but at the time, since he was busting my chops about it, I figured, why not. I mean…it’s not everyday that I can find someone I click with so well. We’ve actually talked about my fears and insecurities and why I was already burying the possibility...