I read this subject on another forum. So was there anyone in the past or by fleeting moment past/present you thought was your greatest love? Someone who will never leave your mind or who you always think of and consider who "could have been"?

I was in love before, but it was a one-way love. She was married, happy, and I wasn't going to try anything that could jeopardize her marriage.

She was everything that I could of ask for in a woman and more. Everything she did impressed me, and inspired me. She had a smile that I would die for. She always found happiness in every misery. I talk to her about the problems that I wouldn't even tell my best friend. I guess in a sense, she was my best friend. I am, in nature, hotheaded and wild, but when she is with me, she turns me in to this gentle and caring person. I felt peaceful and felt this happiness that I never felt before in my entire life. She made me want to be a better person without even me knowing it. She had that aura about her.

I wasn't sexually attracted to her, even though she was gorgeous. Every time we hung out, with friends or just by ourselves, my heart felt like someone was hammering my heart with a hammer. Sometimes, I would have to grab my chest, because it was hurting me so much...I thought I was gonna die from a heart attack. I thought I was a weirdo, because I was falling for a woman, who's married. I felt guilt for feeling this way about her, but I never showed it. We were just great friends.

She eventually moved to Tampa bay, I was sad. But you know what? in a way, I am glad she moved away, because I didn't want to feel this way towards a girl that I know I would never be able to share this feeling with her.

I always wanted her to know me, not just as a friend, but as a lover. But like I said, I wasn't going to do anything that would jeopardize her marriage.

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Describing your feeling had my heart speeding up and tightening. I feel like I have lost someone.


Personally...Love? not yet. I've had the extreme like that got away but nothing that has moved me where I feel I can't go on or feel so much hurt/regret that I have nothing with him. I haven't gotten close to a guy for that yet.

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I just can't help myself. Risk it all with me.

i'm not sure yet...

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The one big love to date for me was this Korean guy. He came here from Korea and worked as a translator. We fell in love and it was like something out of a dream. He was good looking, passionate and was all I wanted in a man.

It hurt very much when he ended it to go back to Korea. There were other things I found out, but it's not important right now.

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Did you ever consider going with him to live in his country?

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Well, he told me before he left that he had a wife and son in Korea. This was something he failed to tell me about when we first met.. so I was with him the whole time not knowing he was married...

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There was one female department manager at a retail store that used to work with me. She was an irish gal...reddish brown hair and blue eyes. She wanted me to work for her department but the store manager and my female department manager won't allow it. She had guts to approach me one day and introduce herself. I knew while I was working..she was watching me from afar... Somehow I knew she wanted to get to know me outside of the store and possibly have a relationship. I wonder what would happen if I stay and we probably gone out and had a good time together.

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Pro, sorry to hear that. That really stinks that the guy led you on without seeing the future in the relationship. And yet you still remember him in such a fond memory...the guy is lucky, I suppose.